Struggling right now

Hey,
Right now I am struggling with bpd and addiction to drugs…I try to stop the drug and then I just go to another destructive behaviour…all I do is go back and forth between each other…anyone else go through the same thing….
Thanks Heather

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NA really what is the point in it…

The other day I attended my first NA meeting. To be honest I’m not sure why I even went. I thought that going to meetings like these are suppose to keep you from using drugs? Well, that’s not what happen with me. Going to that meeting caused me to have very strong cravings, and I wanted to get out of there fast and go home and call a friend. That is what I did when I got home, and so that day I relapsed.

I no for sure that I am NOT going to another NA meeting. That was not what I thought the point in those meetings.

Right now I just feel that there is no point in trying to quit. I always end up relapsing and start using again…I am so lost right now and hate myself, for picking up the phone and calling my friend

Heather